Wednesday, July 2, 2008

Not a great day.

I'm not exactly sure how to write this post and am at a total loss on how to start so I'll just begin by writing what happened yesterday and then hope it flows from there.

I had just the little ones home yesterday afternoon and we were getting ready to head out to run a few errands before Trey got home.

I was going to pay some tickets so I wouldn't get arrested but that's totally not the point of this post and I'd appreciate you not dwelling on it, but also giving me the name of a good attorney if you happen to have one handy.

I digress.

I was downstairs trying to round everyone up and Tee was already waiting in the car when the girls came running down the stairs screaming and crying. I couldn't understand what they were saying but they have a penchant for the dramatic so my first reaction was definitely not panic.

When I heard the word "FIRE!" and "House is on..", I panicked. By now everyone was screaming and crying and I could smell smoke so I scurried everyone outside and ran in to see what was burning. After several moments of trying to find the source of the smoke and smell, I looked under our air hockey table to see a lamp and a blanket in flames. I could hear my kids still screaming in the front yard and quickly put out the fire. When I got the kiddos inside and assured the them everything was fine, they started crying and screaming all over again. It was right about then that my oldest called his father; screaming that the house was on fire. I couldn't even explain anything yet since I still didn't even know exactly what had happened .

When I finally got everyone settled and tried to find out how the fire started, Sadie, through tears said, "I was playing tent and plug-ged in the lamp from our room and it caught on fire." When I looked at her closely for the first time, her hair, eyebrows and eyelashes were all singed.
Now, I totally broke down. I KNEW that lamp had a short in it and had meant to have it rewired but hadn't taken care of it yet and worse, had left it in the girls' room. Holding Sadie and smelling he smoke and burned hair, my mind immediately went down the road of "what if" and it's a dark path. I trust fully in a soverign God who has us firmly in the palm of His hand but I also struggle with my flesh that keeps whispering, "Where were you? Why weren't you watching her? What if it had been worse?"

Over the years, I've been taught great lessons in humility when it comes to caring for children. It's so easy to believe, "I got this." and yet we never really do. We aren't designed to work independent of His grace and it only takes a moment to be reminded of our inadequacies. We are designed to depend fully on One who graciously gives us each breath and to lean into His strength when we are weakest.

Thank you, Lord for protecting Sadie, and the rest of our family yesterday and always. Thank you for sheltering us all in the shadow of your wing and for reminding me that You are an ever present help in trouble. Without You, I am lost.

16 comments:

Abbie said...

Oh Melissa. You are one of the best mommys I know. You are right on when you say God is ultimately in control of EVERY situation. Nothing you could have done would have made the outcome any different. Give your kiddos big hugs, and move on. You deserve it! :)

Traci Anne said...

Oh my gosh!!!! I'm so glad everyone's okay! Just don't beat yourself up about this, okay? Just keep thanking God for protecting you and your loved ones!

Kori said...

So glad to hear everyone is alright. And you are a great Mom and don't doubt it.

Jess said...

Wow, I am SO thankful she, and everyone else is okay!

You are a wonderful mother and woman. Thank you for always sharing your heart in such a transparent way.

Candy said...

We have a very BIG God whose faithfulness is ever-lasting, His mercies new every day. And, He builds beauty out of ashes. He's building beauty in you and your children who have witnessed His protection in a most dramatic way.
Love you,
Nanny

Zan said...

So glad everyone was OK! You're girls did a great job alerting you before it got worse. They are awesome and so are you!

Jill Porvaznik said...

Hi Melissa, I feel like I should introduce myself since I have been in your life all of this afternoon. My kids made me stop reading so they could eat dinner, and I have all but convinced my husband we need to pack up and move to West Dallas. What a complete and incredible ministry you and Trey have. What an encouragment to the rest of us too. You are awesome, tonight rest in His hands and when the enemy comes to whisper his lies, recognize it for what it is. Lies.

Busy Mom said...

Thanks for sharing. This is a great reminder to me to talk to our kids about this. They LOVE to build forts, etc. around the house and this is totally something they would do and not think anything of it. Thanks for sharing! Enjoy your blog--found it from jumping from blog to blog I guess. Blessing to you!

Daisy Girl said...

Oh my heavens! I'm so glad you are all alright. I know that must have been terribly stressful!

JB said...

The Lord really does protect us in an awesome way...This brings back memories of my little sister who "ran away" from home at age 5. She didn't get very far when a car picked her up. Thank the Lord, the car had a mother in it with children of her own who helped Abby spot my family...(while we were being driven around the neighborhood frantically by my sweet mom who was literally inconsolable). Big hugs to you Mel.

Denita said...

Melissa I'm glad everyone is alright.

I understand how we tend to blame ourselves. I just let Coleman fall off the bed AGAIN. I'm up so I can wake him up every hour per doctors instructions.

Now I'm just resting in the fact that God is Soverign and not me.

These Three Kings said...

awww. I am so sorry.. praise GOd you guys are ok.. oh...please hug you little on for me..
continue to speak the truth to yourself, over and over again.. The LORD has given you HIS SPIRIT with that comes a wisdom, understanding, and obedience to GOD which equals best mom ever!!

I will pray for this battle because its a tough one

emily said...

Sweet sister, it is only by God's good grace that any of our children make it through each day! You are a wonderful mom, I know. :)

happygeek said...

So glad everyone is OK.
Praising God for his protection.

Holli said...

speechless.....
God is Good!

Anonymous said...

Thanks for not telling everyone it was MY lamp that I sold to a freind (Carey Gidden - really her fault) that sold it to you! God bless sweet sadie