Although I like to think of myself as an avid exerciser, I'm pretty loose with the term and avid in the hoodmama dictionary has other synonyms like 'rare', 'when I feel like it', and 'only if it's not cold outside'. I definitely have my moments of consistency but they tend to be short lived when it gets chilly so I haven't exercised in the past couple of months.
Did I mention it's been brisk outside? Translation: It's been below 60 degrees. I have obviously lived in Texas too long and expect absolutely no sympathy from any of you living north of Wichita Falls.
This morning, I turned over a new leaf. Or better said, I just turned my leaf back to the side where I actually do something healthy in the mornings instead of simply consuming large amounts of half-and-half with a touch of coffee.
Irish Laura and I went running before sunrise and actually managed to keep a pretty good clip for 1/16th of a mile. I had to slow down for Laura. Or the other way around, what does it matter? All I'm going to say is it's completely humbling running with a nineteen year old athlete who has neither four children or a strong penchant for Milk Duds.
Once we settled into a pace where we could talk, we began hashing through some of the issues we're seeing in the community. My faith is so weak right now as I wonder how in the world some of our families' situations could ever be turned around. The cycle of poverty in this community is strong and the circumstances seem insurmountable more often than not.
Laura, so tenderly and with that really cool accent, reminded me that we cannot put God in a box. We cannot define who he is and what he is capable of by our limited imaginations. His ways are not our ways and he has spoken into creation all that we see. If with a mere whisper, he transformed darkness into light, how can we not believe transformation can come to this little community?
What a sweet gift, to be up before dawn and to be reminded again of the first verse I learned as a new believer, "be still and know I am God", for "even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is a bright as the day..."
Amen. Now if He could also transform my downside of 30 stamina into that of my 19 year old new running partner, we'd be in business and I'd be less ashamed. :)